Category Archives: Random nonsense

Such a beautiful letdown

so w/ this whole “break/breakup” with John, I feel like I’m becoming a bad person. Not Bad like rapin and killin people, but a bad person to myself. does that make any sense? I really dont care if it does or doesnt.


I’m now the only person in my circle of friends who’s single.


I know that shouldnt be a huge deal, but to me it is.

I know that a mojority of the breakup was my fault. I lied about dumb shit. I shouldnt have done that.

I knew that he already had trust issues and I told him that I wouldnt be “one of those girls”


ha, WRONG!

I became “one of those girls”. I tried to fix it, but the damage was done.

I still hurt even though we  still talk and such. I just want things to go back to the way they were, when everything was ok.

I’m become bitter towards people who are in happy relationships. I used to have that, but I fucked it up.

And I’m afraid that I’ll never get that back.

Johnathon Stribling: how do we fix our relationship? it’s broken.

I am not 100% confident in things you’ve told me now and if you will be able to be honest

I totally understand him on that. I fucked up. how do you trust a liar? especially when you’ve done it several times before just to get burned again?



Johnathon Stribling: everyone is telling me to let you go

my head is telling you me to let you go

my heart says no though


All of my friends wonder why I stay with some one who can make me feel like such shit.

I stay because he doesnt do it just because, anytime he makes me feel bad, its because I’ve made him feel even worse.


I wish I knew why everything I touch turns to shit. The best relationship I’ve ever had is turning into the most painful thing ever.

Johnathon Stribling: im tired of this shit, do i get upset easily with you, yes…..but i feel i have valid reasons…….im tired of the lies, tired of your ehb…..just tired of all the bullshit……i don’t want to give up but i feel nothing is going to change

That hurt. but nothing hurt as bad as this:

i loved you yes

but i couldn’t handle it

past tense?

i’m not going to say present cause i’m not gonna drag you along not knowing the future
That was like a stab directly to the heart.
but hopefully we can work something out.


Johnathon Stribling:  i wish this would all go away

like i would wake up from this nightmare

and there would be my angel

my perfect baby

my kiara


Thrift store living room!

so saturday i had an adventure with Jeremy,Miranda and Nicholas~ totally had to force miranda out of the house lol.


We went to J-mall to get food and fucked around in JcPenney and made Nick try on stupid clothes~


nick and his fancy clothes



Then we headed over to Harpers to hang out. Our friend Sarah had given Harper 3 bags of clothes to go through a few weeks ago and I finally remembered to look through them!


lots of shirts and pants and some lingerie and some Jersey Shore type stuff lol.

We had jeremy try on some size small shirts  lol~ he totally Hulked out of those shirts




HOWEVER!! we did manage to find a shirt that fit! and one for Nicholas too!


but thats not the best part! Harper had hot pants and leggings!



hot pants


then another one of my friends came over and got into the swing of things! I promised him that i wouldnt reveal his identity lol



dream car!

its no secret that I like nice things.
so it should be no secret that my dream car is a Big Bourgeois Beast
a Mercedes G-class.
They used to be used in the Army
see! army mercedes!
but yeah~ I would love to own one of these babies. they START at $105,750.00
which basically means that Ima be doin a whole lotta hair,nails,makeup and eyelash extensions.
But it would SOOOOO be worth it.
also Nicole Richie owns one =]
So, i went to the Mercedes website and built my own G-class to MY liking
cuz im Bourgeois.


Exterior:Arctic White$0
Trim:Burl Walnut Wood Trim$0


white on white!
final cost:


so…once i get outta school, anybody want they hair did?


and on another note- I, kiara, have made another blog!

my blog, mostly gal stuff once I get started on it.

Gyaru Meme pt. II

I did one too!

Name: Jeremy S. Schneider
Location: Also Louisville, Kentucky
Occupation: Also Bum
Height: 6’0″
Hair/Eyes: Blackish?/Greyish-green-blue things
First discovery of gyaru:
I think Kiara said something about it once? I don’t know anymore. 2010!
Your Gyaru Style: (however many you like)
1   Rock-kei (I don’t know what this means but I have like fifteen Ramones albums so it’s probably right.)
Your Top 5 Gyaru Model Inspirations:

Tyra Banks. She is America’s top model. USA #1 forever

Your Top 5 Gyaru Non-model Inspirations:

I want my neck to be as thick as Henry Rollins’. I’m going to join a gym so hopefully that will be a reality.

Your 4 Favorite Gyaru Magazines:

1. Something with black girls fucking white dudes

2. Probably something with trannies

3. Something with big asses.

4. More trannies.

The Top 6 Gyaru Brands you like best:

I make my own shirts in the basement sometimes. DIY!

5 of Your Favorite Coordinates: (not your own)

Your 7 Favorite Fashion Items That You Own:
I got this pair of aviator glasses that are kind of busted and like this vest I made by gluing a bunch of patches to it. Is that gal?

Top 10 Gyaru Fashion Goals:

Whatever Kiara said. Except I don’t have a boyfriend D: And I can’t be a mom. I don’t want wigs either.

Top 5 Gyaru Achievements:

One time I jerked off really hard and I couldn’t do it again for like a week.

Ten Songs I Like Right Now

i miss my baby

i miss my johnjohn

i miss everything about him.





but mostly this: playboymaterial:  >:]  nipple rangsssss..bitch got curved barbells in em! *o* never even thought about thatttttt

and this

ffffuuuckkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!


this too




that is all.